Those are the things I am holding onto these past few days. Or I guess past couple of weeks. I won't go into nasty details, because you all know that is not healthy. I will say that I know God has a plan. He has plans even when we screw up His plans. And then He has backup plans for the backup plan that we screwed up last week! So, I know God will overcome. So in the meantime I pray. I pray like I have never prayed before.
Which is always so sad. Praying like I have never prayed before because my family and my marriage is falling apart at my feet. Why didn't I pray when things were just hairy? Why didn't I pray when things were good? Why didn't I pray before? However, those thoughts aren't healthy and I need to take what I have right now and run with it.
So I am holding onto Prayer. And my God who does miraculous things. (Have you READ the Bible? Seriously miraculous things.)
And Hope...Hope for a better tomorrow. Hope for a better today. Hope for smidges of movement in the direction of family. Smidges of movement in the direction of restoration. What those may look like only God knows. But I have HOPE in HIM and I know that whatever the outcome, He will provide.
I just have to keep reminding myself of these things. At all times.....
Something someone told me really stuck with me... a lady from my last Bible study group was widowed after 27 years with the love of her life. Ten years later she met a man and married him (he was actually a widower). She said that her second husband wasn't Plan B, or C, but it was always God's Plan A. I know in this time of frustration, heartbreak and uncertainty, God has Plan A for you. He has gone before you in this situation and knows all things!
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